સાથે અને પાસે 

સાથે અને પાસે આમ પેહલી વાર નજર નાખિયે તો કાઇ ખાસ ફરક ના જણાય બે શબ્દોમાં અને ઍવુ પણ લાગે કે ઍક જ વસ્તુ માટે પ્રયોગ થાય છે. મારા માટે કહુ તો 'ના' - આ બંને શબ્દો દેખાય છે ઍટલા સરખા પણ નથી. મારા માટે તો બંને સાથે જોડેયલી લાગણીઑ પણ અલગ છે. કોઈક નુ ઍવુ કેહવુ કે હુ તારી સાથે છુ પણ રોજ ઍવો ઍહસાસ થાય કે મારી સાથે તો છે પણ પાસે નથી. 

સાથે હોવુ ઍ હિમ્મત છે અને પાસે હોવુ ઍ અનુભવ છે. આ બંને શબ્દો વચ્ચેની રમત ની રેખા ઍટલી નાની છે કે ઍને

 ભૂંસી કાઢવી પણ શક્ય નથી. આમ જોવા જઈઍ તો બંને શબ્દો ની પોતાની આગવી જગ્યા અને ઍહસાસ છે. બંને જ્યારે જોડે હોયને ત્યારે ઍનો અનુભવ smile બનીને બહાર આવે. ભલે મને તુ રોજ નથી કેહ્તો પણ  તારા હોવાનો ઍહસાસ મને તારા સાથનો ઍહસાસ કરાવે છે. પણ જ્યારે બીજાને જોવુ તો ઍમ લાગે કે ક્યાક્ તો નથી અત્યારે મારી જોડે તુ.

ખબર છે કે આ ગૅપને પુરી નથી શકવાના પણ મજાની વાત ઍ છે કે બંને સરખા લાગતા શબ્દોનો આટલો વિરોધી અર્થ આના વગર કદાચ ના સમજાયો હોત.

It's your life :)

Dress up for yourself as you love to see yourself in mirror

Sing songs for yourself as you love the music and lyrics of songs

Watch movies as you dream it to be happen someday in your life

Compliment yourself as you see the memories in photos

Read stupid story books as you believe it somewhere happening around

Buy new things as you owe those money and value of those things

Cry hard as you know how much pain it gives you

Sit alone as you know how much peace you need to keep calm

Sleep like small baby as you know how hardly you can get deep sleep

Go on long drive as you know how much you love driving

Eat ice cream and chocolates as you know how you used to love it 

Love your life as you know how hard it is to predict what will be the next moment! 

Choice and Character 

I thought of writing this post because of book name called 'Draupadi'. Today, I bought book which says lot more about the character of Draupadi which is not much covered in Mahabharata. After reading the summary of book I find yes it is completely true that person's choice, likes, dislikes says more about the person's real characteristic.

It reminded me one of my choice which actually reflects one of my character quality. :P Since my childhood I have heard Mahabharta number of times from my grandmother so Mahabharta's each character is completely clear in my mind. Thus, Krishna is my favourite character and mentor so the people who has important role in Krishna's life are more clear to me. One day, like a normal day I and one of my good friend was discussing about the relationships of Krishna. Actually, it was not about Krishna's relationship but it was more on general prospect.  As we are aware Krishna's name can be call always with Radhaji but Radhaji was not his wife whereas Rukamaniji was his wife but we never take her name with Krishna. So all of sudden he asked Kinjal tell me which character you want to be 'Radha or Rukmani' if you get chance. Without taking any moment, I quickly answered 'Rukamaniji'. He was completely surprised he asked me for reason. But before that he told me that he was thinking that I will answer 'Radha' as she was love of Krishna. Surprisingly, It was not my answer. He asked me reason with all his curiosity. I simply clarified that dear friend anyone can be love of Krishna but 'TO HANDLE/MANAGE GOD'S HOME IS REALLY BIG RESPONSIBILITY AS HE IS THE ONE WHO MANAGE WHOLE WORLD SO HIS HOME MUST BE BIG RESPONSIBILITY'. I felt taking this responsibility means you have to take care that no one goes with empty hand and full fill all requirement, I think that's amazing feeling. Today, while reading book of 'Draupadi' I realized, yes it is somehow in my character from very beginning that I always take responsibility whether it is personal life or professional life. 

When I discussed above thing with my friend at that time I was just step-in to my twenties. I did not understand how this answer came directly as at that age like other peers I should also have the Love as first choice. But when I look back to this incident then I can understand myself better. :) Yes, reviewing your own experience can decrease distance to yourself in order to understand yourself more. So, yes your every choice and every decision say something about your personality and character.  

From where you belong - Part -1

I have heard many people saying that no matter how much you grow in your life but at least one time you have to go to your roots. For me my roots and whatever I am today is because of my parents so here I am writing about some facts of my roots.

My father works in hardcore mechanical field and my mother is housewife. I am gonna write here about my two experiences which are belongs to them.

There were very less facilities available for education in my mother's schooling time. Thus my mother has studied from government school like the other middle class student of that era. Today when we hear word 'government school' then the first image comes to our mind is broken building, dirty school dresses etc. So this is common image of public school we have and most of us have never visited or saw those schools. By all this imaginations we can at least understand from what our parents have gone through just to get basic education. As I was working in education field I have visited the few private schools which are no lesser than any five star hotel. I was surrounded by the people where everybody wants to contribute something to the society. It is always hot topic for us to discuss what can be done for the same while discussing this we thought let's start to do something with ngo call 'YUVA'. This ngo basically works for children of below poverty line. They takes care of their education mainly. So we consulted them and organize one meeting in our office. The conclusion came after meeting was that our employees will contribute to their new project of teaching English in government school. After this mutual agreement, they rolled out the allotment of school to employees. On the same day I went back home and I discussed with my mother that this is kind of project is going to start and I will be part of it.

I remember after 3-4 days we received email from Yuva with our school and class list. I received some school called government school no. 1 & 2 in an old city area called dariyapur.

Honestly, for me to going into city area is very difficult as I always gets confuse because of their narrow road system. But I thought let me ask this address to my mother and I followed the same. After reading address she was smiling. At first place I did not understand that why she is smiling so I continued telling her my plans then she told me its her school where she studied. After hearing that the excitement to see this campus was double. As scheduled the day came and it was my first day to school, our introduction day. While attending this whole ceremony I felt like yes this is the best thing I can give back to my mother and I did it. It was best feeling ever to get to know the place from ur mother belongs to and even super best and satisfactory feeling when you give something back to that place. :)

I wish you could

People say that the things which you hate most crosses your path sooner or later.

Here I am writing similar to those things which I hate most but it is not leaving me alone. It is following me just like my shadow.

I see you everyday in my dream and wish you could be here

I see people holding hands and I wish you could be here to hold my hand everyday

I see people driving home together and wish you could be here to drive me home when I want to go OUR home

I see chocolate and I wish you could be my partner to share that chocolate

I see bench of park sitting alone there and I wish you could be here to sit beside me

I see those street and wish you could be here to show me way 

I see my cup of coffee and wish you could be here to join me 

I see time flying by my hand and I wish you could be here to make memories of it

I see myself down and wish you could be here to hug me

I always want you to be my shadow, though I know you can not.. 

I know we will be together soon, but I wish you could be here to tell me this everyday...